Idk how else to thank my mom... Except to ensure that I've good health (which is kinda hard) and not make her worry about me...
She's been accompanying me for my hospital checks up, follow ups, A&Es, hospitalisations...
Feel really bad that she had to worry so much about me, tiring herself out for the past few days ESP when I was hospitalised...
Was diagnosed w a few medical conditions last year and she's the one that has been accompanying me throughout...

My health has been getting worst... Getting fatigue easily even after hours of sleep, can sleep up to 15 hours a day and feel so damn tired... Reckless... Moodless... Feel like doing nothing at all... Pain here and there... Just feel uncomfortable and sick... Eating was a torture as well sometimes... I feel hungry but feeling more terrible after eating cos of the bloated ness and nauseous... I've lost some weight...

My mom has been trying to find a Chinese physician to tiao(?) my body... It will take a few years but I will listen to whatever the physician says... Have been feeling so terrible and having this feeling that living in this world is such a torture...

My mom has been spending a lot on me, which I feel really bad...
I feel I've owed her a lot and I feel that I'm such an unfilial daughter... Sometimes I even told her that she shouldn't have given birth to me... Now that I've to suffer so much... Idk how she felt when I said that... I'm really thoughtless...

Tomorrow is the release of A's results and my mom said it won't make a difference if I see the results, which I think is true... She Didn't really blame me for wasting money to retake the exams again... And said that it's okay for me not score well, given that my current health condition and I didn't have what it takes...

I should start thinking positively, I've always have these negative thoughts in my mind which makes me feel so lousy, inferior and that living in this world was meaningless...

Idk why I'm like tearing now... Probably cos I've owed my mom too much... I've told her that I will treat her after I've recovered and she said that she wants nothing except for me to have good health, awwww <3

Couldn't thank my mom enough, thank you, mom <3

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In hospital for 5 days and the hospital food tastes like ..... Exceptionally Wonderful, totally lol.
There's meat, fish and vege la but the way they cooked it was totally mehhhhh Blehhh bland daooooooo.

Glad that I am feeling better, still remember the first few days whereby I was feeling so sickkkk,
Bad appetite, bad temper, slept and woke up every 30mins? Asking for panadol etc.

Can't wait to get discharged! Wanna eat so many food like fast food, jap food, bbt (been controlling myself and having it for at most 2 cups per month or none *self pat*), cupcakes, choco and what's not.

I wanna thank my mom for reminding me that the release of A's results is this Friday :( (alr told her I ll be doing badly but she said it's okay :>)

Wanna thank my mom for coming down to visit me every single day (know she won't be reading this cos she's an IT noob and she has just learnt how to SMS, sometimes we ll SMS silly things hahhaa)
I'm grateful :))

Byebye the weather is awesome and I'm heading down to buy some mag to read or food to eat.
Can't wait to get discharged!! Have been staying here for too long!

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