/♥ Sunday, November 15, 2009
- 12:38 PM
Sighs.
Sometimes, things just happen ... ... so caught off hand.
And ... i should really stop-thinking-so-much.
But, it's really hard ... for me ... not to do so.
Yupps, guess i ll just stay away from crowd.
Keep myself busy by working.
And hopefully, i ll be able to change.
这条路，走得好辛苦，好辛苦。
好累，真的好累。
是我的错，我认了。
不是我的错，我也认了。
这是命，谁都不能改变。
幸福是不能用金钱换取的。
/♥ Friday, November 13, 2009
- 12:39 PM
Finally, the small o's over. hehe.
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...
...
But ... ...
Yknow, was feeling ... terribly bad, not bcos of the O's.
But bcos of something ... which happened ... months ago ...
I wldnt mind the end, but its the progress of the whole thing.
Have been crying lots over this.
Its rlly hard to get healed...
Those scars are there, not as easily removed as i think.
Confidence? Thinking too much?
Am i?
I still rmbed 1 week to month before the O's, was brooding over it a lot & broke down.
Texted fren and fren replied me with 1K sms.
Imagine?
A friend who is still willing to spend the time consoling when o's approaching, comforting, whats more can i ask more?
Yeah, those sms are rlly motivating...
But, i dont get motivated long enough.
It dies off easily, as for my case.
I have put 'protection on' for those sms-es, so that it wont get deleted if i were to clear my inbox. when im feeling down, i can refer to that & feel better?
Yeahs, seeing those sms-es wldnt stop me from thinking of that agn.
That night, we lying on bed, wanted to get some sleep for next day's paper.
And i cldnt stop thinking bout it agn.
And, tears just flow down.
and for that 1hrs ++, was thinking & crying, thinking & crying, thinking & crying.
texted fren agn.
I told fren a lot of stuffs yknow...
Its just feels so comfortable telling fren things, pouring out thoughts & stuffs.
I rlly wanted to control my emotions, to cry less & stop thinking that much.
But its rlly hard.
Its all in-built in me.
Guess i rlly have to learn to be independent.
Im going 17 in less than 2mths time.
During this period, will go to a far-a-away place to ... ...
Yupps.
My mind's made up.
No1 will understand why im doing all these & stuffs.
cnt believe, im tearing agn.
like how many times ive teared over the same old issue?
It just cnt stop................................/♥ Saturday, October 31, 2009
- 10:56 PM
last night, cried over that issue agn.
idk why.
cried for 1hrs+.
i jux cnt get over w it.
The looks on you is totally the you caused me kind of look.
you're jux giving ppl the feel that i am entirely at fault.
is it rlly the truth?
you cnt deny u diden talk.
Yes, i know i asked u qns.
But diden you asked me qns as well?
What hurts me most most is the rxn's of yew.
That face, i will never ever ever ever forget.
and the words he said.
you know, when he said that, my heart sank, rlly rlly sank.
i rlly had the urge to cry.
but but but i controlled real hard.
i rlly wanna prove yew wrong.
rlly rlly want.
the P sorta blames me as well.
Thru this, i learnt a lot.
like how's the frens rxn are.
and u can rlly see who are the ones who are rlly your true frens.
Thru this, i also came to realise that your so called fren may seems to be good to u, but when crisis happens, so called fren will flee 1st, caring for ownself, pretending to act.
it rlly sucks.
rlly rlly sucks.
so anyw, it's up to you guys to think...?
that's 1 of the reasons why i flee as fast as possible aft o's.
i rlly dun wanna face so called fren.
i'm not chionging back to study.
& i dun feel like gg prom ( doubt any1 will care if im gg anyway ).
I dun mind losing the $70, cos i dink it's worth it. in the sense that i will not ... think of those stuffs (if i can)
/♥ Friday, October 16, 2009
- 8:48 PM
It's okays :)
i'll just take it as 0.00000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001% loss.
stw stw.
I didnt gave myself away.
Just that it will need 1 step more.
like srsly uh.
@ 1st i cared, now i dont.
Now you see, now you dont.
I'm off to fulfill something xDD
still have ssecca, get it?
- 3:48 PM
fcuk all these shit.
if you think that SOMEBODY was me, i've got no comments.
You can go check up those IPs.
Or you can report to the police over this.And btw, my com is alr shut down & i was slping @ that point of time.
I'm not @ the least afraid, bcos it wasnt done by me.
Wld i be so despicable to spam yours?
It's my 6th sense that i tell me you think that it was me.
Think agn, why wld i spam yours? @ this point of time ?
When that thing alr happened, do you think i rlly wanna sour this friendship?
/♥ Friday, October 9, 2009
- 2:30 PM
Graduation Day.
Well, thought it will be kind of like emotional ... ?
Amirah cried on stage tday :(
A few others cried too.
Time rlly flies, 4 yr is gone.
Approx. 2 more weeks to the commence of O lvl.
Unbelievable...
Miss Soh had been with us for 4 years.
She's rlly a good teacher.
Even though sometimes she nags etc, but it's for our own good.
___ in front of her twice, rawr. ;X
Similar matters.
Thank you Miss Soh, for your guidance for the past 4 years :))
So yupps, hope 2010 will be a better year :))
Fell down during PE ;X
Think my ankle was sprained.
I've completed the antibotics that was given by doc last fri.
Spent like $30 seeing the doc T.T
But i'm still like having sore throat ...?
20 tablets. O.O
Just now, spent like $10 @ the chinese store(?)
Bought herbal tea x2 & sore throat med.
1 time 4 tablets, 1 day 3 times.
12 tablets in a day :S
Kinda hate swallowing tablets uh!
Shall have a proper post with pictures after O'lvl.
Have quite a lot of photos in HP luhhs.
Anyw, rlly ope i can go BKK @ EOY, no promise though :((
I'm so gonna spend $ there...?
$1k or so?
Long time since i've shopped... !
Chatuchak, wait for me ....... !!
/♥ Sunday, September 27, 2009
- 3:57 PM
When can all these crying stops?
*
Fake enough, acting nice, acting helpful in front of people.
But in your heart, you only cared about yourself.
Selfish enough.
